Mother, you carried me when I was too weak to walk,
Mother, you put your life at risk many times to save mine,
Mother, your courage, your determination, your love is what brought me from Kashmir to the UK,
Mother, in that act alone you changed my life, my destiny,
Mother, you believed in me and encouraged me to do well at school.
Mother, when I was in hospital you told me “Son your body is not strong, your mind is strong – use your mind to make your life”,
Mother,with that instruction you changed my life a second time,
Mother, I remember you would either bring me a cup or tea or tell me to go to sleep when I was studying late for my O and A levels,
Mother, you nursed me and brought me back to health when I damaged my knee at University,
Mother, this week you welcomed me to your home and even though you are not able to look after yourself you still looked after me,
Mother, I struggle to find a way to look after you and at the same time take care of my responsibilities to my wife and children,
Mother, when I think of you and your situation I feel helpless, I feel ashamed – no matter what I do, it is not right, it is not enough,
Mother, being helpless is what I struggle with the most and that is why I keep you out of mind,
Mother, I love you, I hope that you can forgive me for not doing for you what you have always done for me,
Mother, my heart tears and my eyes swim with tears.