On Monday morning at 5am I dropped of my wife and children at Gatwick Airport so that they can spend a week with their French family sking in the Alps. And when I dropped them off I was thinking “Great, I am going to get some peace and so can get on with all the stuff that needs to be done.” During the working week that worked out just fine: I had lots to do at work and I got on with it. In the evenings I either wrote, I read or I watched a movie. I even reached out and talked with a friend or two in distant lands by using Skype. I was alone but did not have the time to be lonely.
Today, I am not busy and I have already done all that needs to be done. And so I am alone with myself. Being with that I totally get that whilst life has been peaceful and easy this week, it has also been without any sunshine. I have missed and do miss seeing the faces of my wife and children. I miss hearing their voices. I miss getting and giving hugs. Today, I am both alone and lonely.
Now I am totally ok with this feeling. Because I know that I will be picking up my wife and children on Monday morning. And I have already arranged to go and see my sister and her family this weekend.
Nonetheless, I feel for all the people in this world that are alone and lonely and have no-one to turn to. I wish I could share a tea/coffee, some food and conversation with you and drive out the loneliness – even for a little while.
Existential Conversations For Playing Big 