What kind of person am I?


What kind of person am I?  That is a question that I have wondered many times.   Here is what I have figured out so far:

I am the kind of person that feels emotional pain if his garden is not neat and tidy.  So I mow the lean and trim the hedges and do the weeding.

I am the kind of person that buys a book that he already has (The Prophet by Gibran) because he loves the illustration – the colour, the beauty.

I am the kind of person that tells the CEO that he will not comply with his order because “I do not relate to myself as a liar, a thief or a cheat”.

I am the kind of person who remembers that he did not do all that he could have done to help a blind old lady when I was 14 years old and hope that she will forgive.

I am the kind of person who gave a beggar £20 and savoured his bemusement and his smile.

I am the kind of person who noticed a young lady who looked like she was starving (and penniless) and bought her lunch.

I am the kind of person who told his best friend that he was making a mistake in marrying his bride to be because that is what a true friend does.

I am the kind of person who provides a home to his friends when they had none.

I am the kind of person who loves tranquility and peace yet also loves the company of interesting people.

I am the kind of person who offers advice to others and yet finds that he is not practicing what he is preaching.

I am the kind of person that abhors a mess and so puts things in order.

I am the kind of person that ask questions and questions the status quo.

I am the kind of person who can shout at his kids and then feel intense remorse over what he has done.

I am the kind of person who loves to learn and to share what he has learned.

I am the kind of person who finds tears streaming down his face when he watches movies like The Blind Side or Awakening or Dead Poets Society.

I am the kind of person who admires The Buddha, Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Mother Theresa, Richard Feynman, Jesus…

I am the kind of person who puts his family before himself most of the time and when I do not then I feel guilty.

I am the kind of person who can only sleep well when he knows that his conscience is clear.

I am the kind of person who gets upset easily when he sees mans inhumanity to man and other living beings.

I am the kind of person who gets so wrapped up in the daily motions of life that he does not make enough time for friends or the spiritual aspects of life.

I am the kind of person who is awestruck by the beauty of the natural world: fields, mountains, valleys, rivers, the sea

I am the kind of person who is so distant from his ideal image of himself.

I am the kind of person who can feel the pain of the poor and the powerless because I was once poor and powerless.

I am the kind of person who is cursed/blessed that he tends to see beyond the surface and so does it easily fit into the existing way of doing things.

I am the kind of person who appreciates technology yet also sees how it is killing social (interpersonal) skills in children.

I am the kind of person who has high moral standards and yet often fails to live up to them.

I am the kind of person who yearns for harmony and yet often ends up disrupting it.

So what kind of a person am I?  I am still confused – it appears that I am a multitudes of selves all co-existing under one roof.