Let’s begin this conversation with a definition of agency so that you and I are clear about that which I am speaking:
In social science, agency is the capacity of individuals to act independently and to make their own free choices. By contrast, structure is those factors of influence (such as social class, religion, gender, ethnicity, ability, customs, etc.) that determine or limit an agent and their decisions.
What’s the default? Playing small. How does one play small? I say it goes something like this:
- Poor me what a difficult/helpless situation I find myself in;
- It’s his/her/their fault that I am in this situation;
- What I can I do? Nothing – there nothing I can do as I am insignificant/small compared to that which i am up against;
- If only this/that, he/she, we/they, were to change;
- I’ve just got to accept the situation and live with it as best as I can.
Notice, this way of showing up / operating in the world is to put all the power (agency) in the structure (gender, upbringing, social class, culture….) and exercise zero agency. This is a sound way of showing up / operating if you/I are content with playing the victim: feeling sorry for oneself, and complaining about that which is so, and seeking to elicit sympathy for those willing to grant sympathy. If this is working for you as in giving you the kind of existence that you truly wish for then so be it. You can stop here.
If you truly want to play BIG then I say this: start this new year by exercising agency in whatever situation/circumstance you find yourself in. What do I mean by exercising agency? It’s this:
- Here I am in a situation that does not work for me as it is not in tune with who I say I am, and the kind of life I wish to live;
- If this situation is going to change for the better then I have to act – do something that will cause the change that I desire;
- What is it that I can do right now, no matter how small, that introduces a change (no matter how small) in the situation I find myself in?
- I do that which I can do, and I do this right now; and
- I go back to (1) above – taking a good look at the situation as it is after I have done that which I could do the last time around.
When one of my best friends found that he had terminal brain cancer he played BIG. Over the course of the 10 months, he went from being an able adult to a one that is helpless (at the mercy of others) lying in hospice bed awaiting death. I’d catch up with him every week – by phone, and face to face on Saturdays. No matter where he was on this journey of decline/death he focussed on the agency that was still left to him. He focussed on what he could do to effect/shape the situation he found himself in.
Does this mean that he was blind to his loss? No! He was aware of his loss – the loss that he had already incurred, and the loss that was awaiting him. Sure, he grieved for his losses like losing his independence – he could no longer drive, nor ride a bicycle, nor even go shopping as his left visual field had been knocked out so he simply did not see things. No, he did not wallow in his helplessness. He grieved – even cried now and then. Then he got back to showing up and operating as the author of his life – exercising whatever agency remained to him in the here and now.
As always the choice lies with you and me. Does one play small (play victim as in “Poor me…”) or does one choose to show up and operate as the author of one’s life – to exercise agency, to do something about that which matters? Remember this: you and I can have either the results that we desire, or settle for excuses and complaints.
I thank you for your listening and wish you the very best for this new year. Until the next time….